I am truly sorry for your loss. I understand what it's like to lose someone close to you because just two months prior I lost someone close to me. The two things that are helping me to cope are prayer and mediating on the scriptures from the Bible. Particularly 2Corinthians 1:3,4 which speaks of god being a great comfort to us. And Revelation 21:4 which foretells a beautiful future. I hope you find comfort in scriptures as I have .